In the past few days, I've fallen victim to one of the classic blunders which has been alluded to in this blog probably five billion times, namely, feeling bad about myself for not reaching my goal of being practically perfect in every way.
I've felt depressed about being depressed. I've felt that having a few bad days completely destroys and calls into question any progress I've made. I've felt like I should be beyond this by now.
Then I was listened to a podcast and heard a guest say that "learning never ends!" And I thought to myself, When will I learn that learning never ends?!
Why do I keep being surprised by the fact that life is a journey, as my mom loves to say? Why do I keep thinking that life is like school and that I'll graduate at some point and then get to coast along the rest of it like it's summer vacation? Why do I keep expecting that someday I won't ever struggle?
At least my inability to remember that I'll never stop learning and growing and changing is just proving the point that learning never ends, even if it's re-learning the same thing over and over again.
But more importantly, I've been reminded once again that I have stop viewing completion and perfection as the best outcome, because when it comes to life, that's just not going to happen. I have to embrace and be excited by the prospect of growth. I have to not feel bad for not "making it" but excited for all that I can still learn, do, and become.
And while I'd really like to not have to keep learning this lesson, I'm not going to feel bad about myself when I forget again. At least I'm not getting involved in land wars in Asia!